Friday, August 02, 2013

Out of the Darkness.

Sometimes, life throws you a curve ball.  In May, I rejoiced as my darling oldest daughter graduated college (in four years!) with a degree in digital film production. In June, my husband walked out on me and the kids,  my dog died, my roof sprang a leak, and I discovered a rotten patch of floor in my sun room. 

I don't even want to TALK about July.  Suffice it to say, it sucked dirty, hairy butt.

I am living a bad country song, and it ain't pretty.

On top of refinancing the house in my name, burying the rotten corpse of my marriage, and dealing with the fallout with my girls, I'm on deadline. 


I'm supposed to write a ROMANCE when all I want to do is crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head.

But, like the song says, I will survive.  My heart is battered and bruised and my writing muscles are flabby, but I will finish the darn book. That's what writers do.  That's what makes us a breed apart.  We pour our joys and anguish into The Story.

So, I thank the Lord for my writing and for my many blessings.  The bucket labeled Marriage may have sprung a leak, but the rest of my buckets are overflowing.

Now, if you'll excuse me, Shane Falco and I have the next dance.  It's the Electric Slide.




20 comments:

Carla Swafford said...

I'm so sorry to hear of all of that, Lexi. When things go wrong, it's like an avalanche.

How much you want to bet that this book will be the Best F*cking Book you've ever written. You're an expert at angst now and can put it on paper first hand. Got to be a silver lining somewhere.

Hugs.

p.s. The last line of yours made me burst out laughing and little gopher heads popped up around the cubicals wanting to know what was so funny.

Lexi said...

Thanks, Carla. It's been a roller coaster ride!

Suzanne Johnson said...

Hang in there, my friend. I think, in the long run, having that book will give you an outlet. And ditto what Carla said--this will be the best damned book ever! We've got your back and I'm 45 minutes down the road. Don't forget that! (LOL...electric slide!)

Lexi said...

Thanks, Suzanne. My SM friends are counted among my blessings! Licking my wounds and slowly recovering. The muse is still pouting, but that's her natural state. :-)

Carla Swafford said...

Muse - she's such a selfish bitch. :-)

Lexi said...

Yes, she is, and temperamental to boot!

Heather said...

Love you! You know the saying, that which doesn't kill us is fair game come hunting season :)

Lexi said...

Heather, Iike the way you think!

Meda White said...

I'm so sorry to hear about the crap but I'm glad you can count your blessings in the midst of it. Chin up and keep dancing. <3

Lexi said...

Got no rhythm, Meda, but I'm twirking away!

Lisa Maxwell said...

So sorry to hear it's been rough (understatement, I'm sure) lately. :O(

But here's wishing you sunshine and lollipops and everything good in the guture.

Lexi said...

Funny you should say that, Lisa. One of the nicknames for the heroine in my WIP is Lollipop and another one is Sassy Sunshine!

M.V.Freeman said...

You are one of my heroes Lexi--always have been.

I will not get schmaltzy...I want to because it makes my heart hurt for you (see I did anyway), but instead I am going to take lead from Heather (who I totally agree with)--Here is a quote on a T-shirt I was given:

"You are SO dead in my Novel..."

Damn I love good comeuppance...just sayin'. :)

May you find more laughter in the next few months--the words come when you need them.

Lexi said...

Bless you, Mary. You have the rare ability to make those around you feel better about themselves. Thank you for cheering me on!

Christine said...

I'm so sorry that you had to deal with all of this yuck and muck, Lexi. Big monster hugs to you and your chicks. I know you will be able to pour all of this into your writing and make the next book even stronger, better, wiser... and electric!!

Next time I see you we will have a glass of wine and toast all the good and wonderful things in your life.

:-)

Lexi said...

Ah, Christine, you are such a good friend. Yes, we will toast the good things!

Louisa Cornell said...

My heart hurts for you and your girls (and the surviving dog, which one passed away?) You are such a smart woman, Lexi. You're one of the smartest people I know when it comes to dealing with life's side trips into someone else's coming out of the closet as a four-star asshole. (Oops! Did I say that out loud?) You're tough as nails too, but sometimes nails get smashed on the head so hard they have to bend a bit and say "Damn, that hurt like a )(**^%%^ And its okay to do that, to hang out bent over a board and figure out how to get out of a hole someone else pounded you into with malice aforethought. Or is that mallet aforethought?

And as I always say, "What doesn't kill you has earned a one way ticket to the alligator farm."

Always here for you with a billy club, an extra large economy sized trash bag and a pickup truck with a tank full of gas. The gators are open 24/7.

This writing gig is more than what you do, it is who you really are. Never forget that.

Lexi said...

Louisa your kind words are more precious than gold. Glad to know I have you in my corner. It has been a hard summer but I will be okay. We lost Boo the Dachshund muse. Miss her silly clownish ways every day.

Aidee Ladnier said...

So sorry to hear of your troubles, Lexi! All of us Southern Magic peeps are keeping the good thoughts flowing your way. And as someone who's lived through a "movie of the week", I salute your "bad country song". You're going to come out on the other side better and stronger than you ever thought possible. :)

Lexi said...

Aidee, my writing peeps are among my many blessings. Thanks for the positive vibes. We should compare movies of the week sometime. Lots of fodder for writing, for sure.