I have a secret. One I am loath to admit, even to myself. Somewhere, buried deep in the recesses of my mind, a voice asks a very simple question: "Why don't you quit?"
Quickly and quietly, I push that horrid little voice away. Yet, a seed has been planted and helplessly the evidence rolls out before me. I have been avoiding anything and everything (outside my day-job) pertaining to writing. Avoiding all the great little blogs, twitter posts, and even (gasp) the chair... (Yes, that is the red glow of shame creeping up my neck and cheeks.) At first glance, I was convinced I was not "passionate" or "committed" enough to this writer thing and perhaps it was time to throw in the towel.
But, I remembered something said to me after I had been on my day-job for about five years. When I questioned where it could lead me long term, someone suggested I had grown bored and should find a way to challenge myself. I believe they were right. I was burned out and searching for a way to remedy it.
After a closer look at myself, I believe the same is true now of my writing. I'm simply burned out. Over-stressed, impossibly high expectations for myself, limited time, plus. All can contribute to burnout. There are some great posts about the signs and remedies of burnout here and here. All this to say, if you're like me and question your commitment and passion for writing, consider whether you're simply burned out before putting down your pen for good.