The Bible speaks of Job who possessed great wealth and was prosperous. Today we would say Job was “sitting on top of the world”. And yet with all his success and riches the fear of losing it all had lingered in his mind. For when he was stricken and everything taken from him, Job declared the thing he’d greatly feared had come upon him.
I can relate to Job. Last year my dream came true and I was sitting on top of the world. More like tap dancing. Having my book contracted and seeing it published was the culmination of a journey I’d been traveling for years. And yet, niggling in the back of my mind hovered that fear. Could I do it again? My first book was published but what if the editor doesn’t want to buy another one? What if I am a one-book wonder?
Now, as I prepare to submit my second book, the thing I greatly feared has come upon me.
My stomach is in knots. Doubt and insecurity has crept in. So many scenarios of rejection crowd into my mind there’s no room left for the positive images of success. My fear has paralyzed me.
Then I remember the words of another man the Bible speaks of. Right before David strode down to the battlefield to confront Goliath, he proclaimed God had delivered him from the bear and He had delivered him from the lion. Surely He would deliver him from the uncircumcised Philistine. David rehearsed his victories so when he ran down to battle he was confident in his triumph.
So…I begin to rehearse what I know.
I know that I was in the right place at the right time for certain people to come into my life and open doors that I otherwise would not have had access to. I know that in spite of the odds my manuscript was chosen for publication. I know that the dream to have people read my stories and actually like them have come to fruition. Surely, surely it can come to pass for me again.
So when fear arises—and it will because I’m human—I have evidence to look back on. The evidence of my experiences. The evidence of my victories. The evidence of my faith.
Now, as I prepare to submit my second book, I remember two things.
Job overcame because he allowed God to become bigger than his fear.
And like David, if I place my stone of faith into my slingshot of hope I too can slay my giant of fear.