Yikes! I forgot I was supposed to post until this morning! I even wrote it in my calendar and forgot. But that's what deadline brain does. I'm rolling along fine, with about 4 weeks to go, but I'm also being very focused and worrying about each and every little thing. I didn't have second book syndrome, thankfully.
But I may be having 3rd book syndrome. This is the first book in a new contract, and I'm so worried about not disappointing my editor, about not shaking her faith in me. HMB has given me a wonderful opportunity, and I don't want to disappoint anyone there.
And yet I know I always feel this way at a certain point in the book. I always have that sinking feeling that it's not working, that I suck, and that I'll never pull this off. And then, somehow, it comes together. Somehow, I write through the hard part, and it goes smoother and I suddenly see the pattern I'd been missing, the piece that makes it all fall together.
It's an amazing and frightening process, especially when I know someone is waiting for this book, that it no doubt has a tentative slot on the schedule, and that I must deliver a quality product. It's just my process, though, and I'm learning to accept it for what it is.
So blame it on the deadline for the short post, but I have to get back to work. Let's talk process, though. What is yours? Do you see yourself adapting it, if you aren't published yet, for when you do sell a book? Or do you think your process works so well you can't imagine changing a thing? Plotter or Pantser or Hybrid? I'm a pantser all the way.....